James Norton

Oh father where art thou?

James Norton

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(for James Norton 1910-1985)


          A man about his business, he wears a hat and long overcoat and carries a small suitcase in his right hand. The hat is tilted a little to the side. An indent of shade shows the mark of the hand that shaped and set it that morning.


                                                           In the hall mirror

                                                         he places it just so

                                                        his brown felt crown

        

          The brim is drawn down, shadowing his eyes. He is looking to the the left, perhaps glancing in the shop window as he passes Sheila Frocks by Clery's in Dublin's O'Connell Street. The light reflects from his right cheek. The shading below its bone reveals a lean face. His lips are set firm, above them is the darker line of the moustache he kept fastidiously trimmed. He is thirty one but looks older. Collar and tie. The long lapels of the open overcoat reach to below his sternum. His pants are fashionably baggy. The sheen on the toecaps of his shoes shows a high polish. Something white protrudes from his left fist – a handkerchief perhaps? The day is warm: he sweats a little. A street photographer steps forward.


                                                                    click

                                                             out of darkness

                                                                     him

          

          Not - my Da. Not the shyly-smiling face in albums. Not the workhorse harnessed to a family of eight. Not the smoke-haired wraith who, forty years hence, will ask me what went wrong. Him.

          Now he will turn left for Amiens Street railway station and, as the sun sets, reach his destination: Belfast after the blight of 1941:


                                                          after the fireworks

                                                   above rubble-strewn streets

                                                            balloons bobbing

  

          Tomorrow he'll go to Queen's Island and report for work at Short and Harland Aeronautical Engineers, and for three years on and off, rivet together the aluminium wings of Stirling bombers. Heady work for a bicycle shop man.


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          His journey not mine. I am unborn.  Yet here I am, an old boy now, twice his age then, waiting to board the Translink to Belfast, where I've never been. To travel free I must complete a dual-jurisdiction form. The name I sign is his.

          His has a wife and child. His bicycle business has gone bust for want of steel. A protestant friend procures him a union card. Does he hesitate?

          Do they hear the drone of Luftwaffe planes over their house on Dublin's North Strand that night in 1941?


                                                                  Star-gazing

                                                        cradled under the skylight

                                                                their first-born

  

          The percussive force of the bomb which killed twenty-eight people that night blew in the glass but left the child unhurt. Six months later he leaves the neutral Free State for Ulster at war.

          The familiar coastline slips by. Who taught me the names of these little harbours, on our Sunday drives – my Da, or him? Now we pass between green and orange.


                                                                Skeins of hail

                                                     trailing from a thundercloud

                                                            whiten the Mournes


          'Queen's Island?' I am a traveller from the past. 'You mean Titanic Quarter!'


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          Aquamarine sky, sunlight hard and brilliant, the breeze off Belfast Lough sharp as a blade.


                                                               Particles of ice

                                                on the handrail of Queen's Bridge

                                                      don't know they've fallen

  

          The heritage trail: where in all this did he work? Nearby is a vast vacant lot. Maybe here, minding his own, making bombers.


                                                             Blowing in the wind

                                                    every kind of flowering weed

                                                            landing where it will


          He'd bring his wife and child to live in digs in north Belfast, then back to Dublin, always following the work. 

          I've not come for the Titanic, but a simpler memorial draws me: her registration number  stencilled on a sheet of rusted steel.


                                                            Proud of the surface

                                                  a loose screw throws its shadow:

                                                            sunset on Cave Hill


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                                                               Secreted away

                                                        in a battered old suitcase

                                                            oil-and-sweat smell

          

          Among his things a small sheet of paper, yellowed, foxed, creased and coming apart along the folds, headed with the company name, his misspelled, a work reference, their measure of him. It's dated May 1947.


                                                               Another to feed:

                                                           seven months in utero

                                                                 that'll be me

  

          He called me son. I called him Da. That's how it was with us then, and ever would be, me and him.

          In the shifting light of that last afternoon he stands naked before me. He has risen from his cot, small, skeletal, bewildered. A son should not see his father so.

          His sac hangs from him huge and empty: a father not be so.

          He asks me to tell him what has happened: how the shipwreck, what the iceberg? I know he does not expect a reply. He asks that I hear him asking.

          One in unknowing, we face each other, then and now.


                                                                   In the mirror

                                                          this face I am known by

                                                                 out-stares me


James Norton


James Norton was born in Dublin Ireland 1947 where he currently lives. Began writing haiku early 1990's. Started the Irish journal Haiku Spirit, editor 1995-8. Publications include Words on the Wind (1997 Waning Moon Press UK), Pilgrim Foxes (co-authored with Ken Jones and Sean O'Connor, (Pilgrim Press Wales 2001), The Fragrance of Dust (Alba Press UK 2012). Haibun (At Bethel & When You Need it) published by Contemporary Haibun Online Vols 8/1 & 8/4. Award in Genjuan International Haibun Competition Japan 2012 (haibun Yeh Go I).